Believe it or not, there was a time when I looked forward to my "official" weekly weigh-in where I'd actually record my weight on my "official" sheet of paper. Usually I was down 3-4 pounds, sometimes somewhere between 5-9.
Today I'm UP 3.8 pounds. I GAINED FOUR FUCKING POUNDS. I think last week's weigh in might have been a fluke, but even if it was, it was probably only off by a pound or two, still meaning that I GAINED two pounds at best.
Shit like this makes me want to give up. Granted, I binged 3x over the weekend, but when I've done that in the past, I just didn't lose as much; I never gained. I don't know if my weight gain is from the binge or because I just suck at life or because I've just really started working out again on Monday, but wtf, man... It's killing any motivation I may have and put me in a negative mood this morning...
I don't think it's from building muscle. I don't think that the body builds muscle that quickly and I don't think I've worked out hard enough to build four pounds of muscle in a week... Maybe it's water retention from lifting the kind of weights that I lift, but I hesitate to blame it on that because I feel far less bloated than I did over the weekend and at the beginning of the week. So I don't know what it could be...
I'll give it another week. Next Thursday will be a full week of working out (well, 6 days of working out), so if I have another gain or don't see a significant (4+ lbs, ideally 7+) loss, I guess it'll be time to re-evaluate if I should even bother continuing with this. And I'm going to make one hell of an effort not to binge this weekend... But it's hard because that's what I've allowed myself to do thus far and it's something that I (pathetically) look forward to... FML.
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