This is going to be a horrible entry where I judge people. But I have to - it'll all make sense in the end. It's just something I was thinking about at the gym...
I really really REALLY don't want to be one of the frumpy women, much less a frumpy woman who thinks she looks good... This is an honest fear. And it's horrible to admit, but it's true. I don't want to wear all kinds of makeup and the wrong clothes and think I'm all cute when I'm actually not. I'm already super close to frump status just by wearing what I wear and NOT wearing makeup or doing my hair, but at least I'm honest in knowing that I don't look good and I'm not gonna walk around thinking I'm hot shit.
Maybe it's an irrational fear, but I don't want to delude myself into thinking that I look good and opening myself up to the exact kind of judgment that I'm dishing out right now. I'm just keeping it real by sticking to my t-shirts and baggy workout pants at the gym, boring work clothes, and sweatshirts and jeans on the weekend. My clothes might not be cute or anything special, but at least they fit and they don't have holes or Tweety Bird and they're age-appropriate and while I don't wear makeup, at least I don't wear too much (most of the time). Yeah, I'm still going to get judged, but it's not going to be as harshly. At least I hope it's not...
Oh. Almost forgot. 900 in 60.
haha listen, when you're down to a weight you're more happy about we'll have to get together and do some shopping. Honestly, not getting dolled up every day does not equal frumpy. I know what you're saying but at the same time...you're not it lol. If you do feel like some of your clothes are frumpy...toss em! Now the woman who came into work today was scary frumpy haha. She was wearing an old stained collared shirt, with baggy ass jeans, cruddy sneakers, her red lipstick was around her lips instead of just on em and i swear to god her hair was an elvis boufant! Sprayed and moused almost to a point on her forhead. If I had a pic I'd be happy to show you what frumpy is, but until you look like that lady, or close to it....stay positive and confident!
ReplyDeleteWe totally will have to get together and go shopping! I'm horrible at shopping because I stick with the basics in neutrals. Always. Lol. And pretty much most of my clothes are frumpy, but they're comfortable. Now that everything's finally starting to get baggy, it's even MORE comfortable. In all honesty, I probably should by new work pants, but (a) it's kind of nice wearing these and having a lot of room even if there is, like, 6 inches of extra material everywhere and (b) I'm still trying to lose weight so I don't want to spend money I don't have now and then have to go and do it all over again in 6 months when I (hopefully) lose more weight. But if I can't break this effing plateau, I'm going to have to break down and go get at least one pair on the off chance I might have to look nice one of these days.
ReplyDeleteAhahaha, actually, your lady sounds almost exactly like the lady I saw at the gym that inspired this post.